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The weather's been so nice lately. I know I talk about it a lot, but it's literally one of the only things that keeps me wanting to actually wake up in the morning and go do things outside. That, and the idea that there's potential adventure to embark on in a week's time. Hopefully, plans fall together, because all of this work we still have is tying us all down, and I haven't had time to think about anything else. It hurts to see people I care about struggling alongside me, and I know that I could be doing so much more to help them get through it. I wish I could be a better friend.

updates:

*three consecutive nights of no sleep
*physical reminders that I'm not taking care of myself when I should be
*in need of a day off
*and a drink
*went out for a cigarette break + coffee, ended up catching the sunrise (7:21 am)

*on Friday, we drove to a shitty motel room, smoked weed
*and had a semi-successful photoshoot
*came back, smoked more, and drank until I couldn't remember any more details

*on Saturday, I helped out with another photoshoot, this time in a studio
*bad chinese food + a free outdoor concert
*got drunk, went to an okay party
*and had a much-needed talk with someone I value very much

'n thoughts:

*people won't always be kind - don't take it personally
*always say yes to seeing friends
*positive changes won't happen overnight
*look for the good in everything
*it's okay to fuck up
*seriously, it's okay
*learn to appreciate everyone in your life, especially those who stayed
*treat yourself as well as you treat others