this is really just an update for myself. it's currently the second day of february, 2018, and i'm trying real hard to make it as a photographer, and i finally moved out of wilde, and i finally graduated college, and i'm living in a cute lil studio with a cute lil partner, and everything is good, and everything is hard, and everything hurts. at least i'm trying, though.

I literally haven't updated this in like a month and a half but these past few weeks have been grand and hectic and stressful and wonderful and yeah here's a laundry list of what I've been up to:

*went to hempcon with a close friend, got free dabs and more weed samples than I know what to do with
*saw joyce manor for free @ sf amoeba
*smoked lots of joints on hippie hill + got vegan asian food at the mall
*got way too drunk the night after my second day of school, got a bucket of water dumped on me
*I've been cooking a lot of food for the house // other people lately (!!!)
*went to fisherman's wharf with the roommate at the end of the month
*got in n out, sat by the beach and in a garden, went to some art museums
*took shroom extract (psilocybin + alcohol) and had a very weird // interesting experience
*daily beautiful talks with the raddest bae out there
*visited an old high school friend at her university
*moved into a new room with couches on the balcony, a different vibe, and way too many mosquitoes some nights
*lots n lots n lots n lots of alcohol xxx
*and also lots n lots n lots of stress with school etc. etc.
*[I am perpetually tired]
*getting back into working on zine + business things
*also the internship at geneq is cool so far // retreat #1 and #2 were both mind-blowing and humbling
*got to see a$ap ferg, les sins, cloud nothings live for free
*spent one of these weeks in bed all day with soup and a cold
*taking impulsive drives to twin peaks and cute diners and across the bridge at night
*a crazy room to room party @ wilde
*followed by an even more intense out-of-house glitter ball
*followed by endless hours in the same cafe re: midterms and papers
*followed by cloudy days and heavy nights and little sleep
*followed by cute rooftop picnics and trap music in the middle of the night
*followed by naps, morning lectures, skype calls, vodka shots, shaved heads, bottles of wine, new playlists, bong rips, stick n pokes, and just a lot of emotions overall

so hey I guess things are ok. People can be hard to deal with sometimes, but I'm lucky enough to have a cute lil sprout in my life who helps me appreciate the concept of growth on the momentary and gets me through a bunch and wow I just love this kid a whole lot; also people who'll drink with me on Sunday nights and get hungover brunch with me on Monday morning, people to share coffee and thoughts and rad tunez with, and just in general lots of cool humans who make me forget to update this stupid blog more often b/c welp I'm actually out there doing things with my life for once~

thursday:

*had the day off work, slept in until 1pm while listening to mixes
*picked up a rental car and drove to meet an old friend after a doctor's appointment
*had the cutest lunch date at the cheesecake factory
*a day of location scouting turned into a trip into the city
*and then an evening drive through santa cruz
*and spending a peaceful summer night on the boardwalk
*had a pizza dinner on the patio, picked up a succulent on the way home
*and drove back while listening to the weeknd on repeat

friday:

*had a very chill and relaxing afternoon just lazing around
*finished updating my stick 'n poke
*got very fucked up + went to outside lands + saw disclosure and kanye live (!!!)
*(and forgot to document it)
*went to homeroom afterwards for mac 'n cheese
*and then stayed wasted for the rest of the night

saturday:

*went to the aquarium + a whole bunch of museums around pier 39 with pals
*got in n out and ate it by the waterfront
*saw boyhood + came out of the theatre to a crisp summer night
*went clubbing in the castro for a bit
*walked back along the pier, got a late dinner
*and spent the remainder of the evening sitting by the ocean and staring at the bay bridge
*took the last bart trains for the night home

sunday:

*wasn't feeling too great, stayed in bed the whole afternoon
*made vegan pizzas from scratch for the whole house
*special dinner was kinda cool
*got drunk, spent the rest of the night overthinking + skyping the lil rascal

Aside from a brief and kind of inconvenient relapse thing, I'd say this weekend was pretty ok. I have one more week left of summer here, before I head back home to the suburbs for a few days. All I have to do is survive this last stretch of stress, finals, and goodbyes.

Also def looking forward to this new semester. This summer's been way real, and so // too much has happened (that is a + / - / ??? thing I suppose).